Anxiety

It is 2:06 a.m. and I am blogging. What is wrong with this picture? I am not a person who is a night owl, and I know this is going to catch up with me in the morning. However, I am up and I am anxious.

I hate not knowing what the future holds. I am a planner, organizer, and "freaker-outer." When all is said and done, I am horrible at doing what Psalm 46:10 says:
"Be still and know that I am God..."

So here I sit, worried about what the future holds.

Tonight it is about my kids next year. Childcare is a large part of stress in life. I love my current provider and wish she was coming back, but is not due to returning to school full-time. We can keep her one day a week, but that's it. So we started the hunt. For those of you who know me, I look everywhere for something. Mike was frustrated with me b/c we interviewed 7 people in 2 weeks. At least I'm thorough. We made our decision, hoping it was correct. Some things have come up, and I'm anxious. Worried that my kids won't adjust...worried that the change of pace will be too much...worried we will have to stretch to afford the new person.

After talking to Mike tonight, I'm going to call someone that we passed up the first time. It was down between her and the one we thought we would use. I know she interviewed other people after us, and I'm concerned that she won't have the slots open anymore. If you read this, please pray that she will have the slots open and we are able to use her. I know God is in control, but I struggle with giving up control (just ask my husband:).

I'll keep you updated on everything. Hopefully I can actually get some sleep, because it is 2:14 a.m. after all and I'm a working momma (have I mentioned it is musical tech week?).